I realized the other day
In our coversation on the phone
That you only know me in small ways
After all that is my fault, I’ve kept mostly on my own
I thought you knew me, I really did
I thought after all these years you understood my silence
But the other day I realized there was nothing left but an end
After all these years on my own
I have after all developed some self reliance
But you never did unerstand the demons with which I must contend
A tortured soul seeking a new inner land
Blown around with little to find in family or friend
You never really knew my heart or my soul
And if you don’t understand by now
Then me you will never really know
But that doesn’t matter now since you never truly knew me anyhow
I will keep forging ahead on my own
I will make mistakes still, this is true
But only I can judge how much I’ve grown
I no longer need or seek approval from you